12-18, also

12) don't begrudge people for being so spoiled.
13) hate less. / be less of a bitch.
14) sky dive, alone.
15) nude beach!!
16) go to a psychic.
17) save a life. (though i do hope the opportunity never arises.)
18) have an organic vegetable garden.

i don't even know why i'm here. why we think we have to do things we hate to do what we love. in 65-odd years i'm going to be dust or diamonds, and i really just want to know why i should waste any of this time here. are we scared of doing what we really want? or does society just SUCK. or is it too cliche, even for me, to just blame society when i'm the one in control i'm the one in control i think i think i think and therefore

i am.



(i ate too much sugar today and obituaries make me cry)